In search of Tantra of Shamballa II

By introducing myself to Shambala´s Tantra knowledge, I understood the great ignorance which I had lived until now, which brought me to suffering.

For example, my relationships have always been a complete disaster!! Nobody ever taught me how to choose a partner. My mother always told me: You will find the best man for you! He will appear in your life one day and you will realize it’s him!!! You will feel it!!

Mmm… wonderful advice!! And I waited, waited, waited …. In some moments I met a man who looked like that ideal that my mother told me to find…. It seemed that I felt what she explains me, that beating in the chest…. But the illusion lasted very short time, sooner or later began the arguments, the misunderstandings, etc…

If I felt these beatings, why then was not like my mother told me!! Why everything was destroyed and could not find harmony and understanding with these couples?

Let me tell you a little bit about my mother. She was a woman of lower middle class, who left school with only 13 years old to get to work as administrative in a factory. Always told me she was a very shy girl, who was ashamed to speak in public and interact with other people, had a hard time expressing herself. As a teenager she was passionate in basketball, once offered her to play in the best team of the region, since they saw her playing basketball alone and were impressed with the talent they saw in her. But shyness overcame her and said ‘no’, all for the fear of playing in public and having to take a leading role.

All her life she lived in the same way, studies left because she felt ashamed to go to classes and interact with other people. All her life had the same job, the same since she was only a 13 years old girl, because there was safe from any kind of social event. In front of her typewriter, in a gray room with little light, imagining how her life might have been, without feeling plentiful, but conformable with what she had.

Throughout her life she had three couple relationships…. Her first boyfriend was an alcoholic man, who continuously hits her and humiliates her; this relationship lasted about two years, in which my mother suffers permanently. The second relationship she had was with a man who lived in a city far from hers; my mother was very in loved with him, they send each other love letters, talked on the phone continuously…. Until one day, after more than one year of relationship, this man stopped calling her, writing her…. And he did not respond anymore her letters, her calls…..all at once disappeared… my mother suffered for long time. All her dreams were broken into thousand pieces just like her heart! After this experience she has a severe depression that lasted long time. And was completely closed to men, no longer trusted in them, they had done her so much pain that didn’t want to know anything about them!! All were bad!!!

After many years in her 38 years of age, she met a man who at first seemed to be a little strange. She was at the birthday party of a friend and in that moment, in the distance saw a man sitting at a table, a man dressed in a black suit, wearing sunglasses; he looked quiet and lonely…. But something attracted her attention.  Suddenly a friend took her hand and led her to this man, and said: ´This is my cousin, Anthony’. My mother blushed and shook his hand without even daring to look into his eyes.

This was the great beginning of their wonderful relationship!!! They were seeing each other for about two years, until one day my mother discovered a wonderful news…. She was pregnant!!!!! I don’t know for sure what happened between them, all I know is that the relationship ended and my mother decided to have this child alone… and that being was ‘me’!!

I know that during the pregnancy she went through depression, feeling a great anger towards the male gender, suffering the separation from her relationship with Antonio, and feeling abandoned…. Wow, a wonderful emotional cocktail that was transmitting to the soul who lived in her womb!!!

And I came to this world and was raised in a house where there were no men, only my grandmother and my mother, which raised me. My memory is that since childhood I was told that I should be very careful with men, they were all bad. But on the other side, told me that my Prince Charming, the one that we see in fairy tales, one day will come into my life. But I was raised only by women who could not have normal relationships with any man, but on the contrary, their relationships were full of suffering, disappointments, afflictions, etc.

If they didn’t have that knowledge of culture of relationships, of how to build healthy relationships, harmonious, happy, ¿how they are going to give me that lesson? I only learned what they could teach me and when I started to had my first relationships I made all the mistakes my mother made, as no one had taught me otherwise.

I remember one of my relationships. I was 21 years and one hot summer night where I was going to meet with some friends for a drink, took place the first encounter with Mikel.

There was a long time since I didn’t meet with my friends and we had organized this meeting with great enthusiasm. They invited me to the opening of a new restaurant where we were going to celebrate our meeting. When we arrived to the restaurant I was captivated by the beauty of the place, it was next to the sea and had a large terrace where, while you eat, you could also hear the sound of the waves breaking the rocks on the beach, you could feel the smell of the sea, a fresh breeze cooling your skin…. An atmosphere that seemed perfect, to the point of view I had at that time.

When we arrived we met with other friends there, who invited us to sit on the terrace, in a table that had been reserved specially for us, with the best sea views. I had always felt a strong connection with the sea, and being near it gave me a great state of wellbeing and inner harmony, so I felt very well at that place!!

The waiter came to our table. I was so excited talking with friends I had not seen for so long, that I didn’t realized that the waiter stared at me waiting for me to decide to place my order. Suddenly one of my friends nudged me and said: “Come on, ask now, the waiter is waiting just for you!!” Suddenly, I looked the waiter and I saw a guy very attractive, strong, manly who was looking at me with angry face because I was made him wasted so much time in his work. But in that moment, I felt a strong attraction to him and I was so embarrassed that I could not decide what I want for dinner, so I said I did not want anything but a bottle of water.

¡¡¡¡¿¿¿What???!!!! If I was starving!! I hadn’t eaten anything all day and was eager to dinner in that restaurant, there were preparing a very special and delicious food!! But I was so blocked and embarrassed with that attractive boy that I couldn’t act otherwise. And to be honest, this happened to me regularly. Whenever I was in front of a boy I was attracted by I blocked and behaved so ridiculous!!

The night was passing in that place and I could not stop looking at that waiter, he seemed so interesting, so attractive!!! I had to get to talk to him somehow. But the hours passed and I never found the right time, I felt so embarrassed to approach to him! I felt the desire to get close to him, but in the moment of acting I felt totally paralyzed by my fears and insecurities!!! Until it came time to leave the restaurant, we left the table to go our homes and … in that moment I took a blank paper, wrote my name and phone number and went up to him… The only thing I did was giving him the paper and say: “This is for you”. Nothing more could go out from my mouth, not one more word!!!

I left there so angry with myself for not being able to talk to him!! I always saw my friends how it was so easy for them to contact with guys; they didn’t feel any kind of shyness and interacted smoothly. I envied them so much for that!!!

But, what was my surprise? That the next day the waiter called me and said he had been captivated by my beauty. He said he had tried to talk to me through the night, but thought that I was not interested in him. We talked for a long time by phone and agreed to a meeting after a few days. I could not believe it!!! After his call I was so happy!!! My mind was beginning to imagine how this boy was, and how would be our meeting….. So romantic… Where will he take me in our appointment? What we could talk about?

Then the day of our first date came. He picked me up and went for a walk in a beautiful city park. During the walk we were talking about us, of our interests in life, our studies and work. At that moment I saw that we were two very different people. He was a chemistry student who was just starting, and I was a frustrated dancer who wanted to develop her creative and artistic part, but had not yet found her way in life, but dreamed of the day that the road would appear. The truth is that the appointment did not go as I imagined, we could not find any common point in our way of seeing life.

He told me he could not understand how I lost my time in that way and he seemed to me very serious and boring….. But, I don’t know what kind of madness pass through my mind, to continue meeting with him!!! Much more days, but almost everything was a discussion… Our tastes were totally different, for example, when going to the movies we discussed on what kind of movie watch… everything was an argument!!!

Without realizing it, over time, I was accustomed to always be arguing with him. When we met, he never told me how beautiful I was; but on the contrary, it was all about critiques to the way I dress…. If I should dress more formal, not so extravagant … He said to me don’t use make up, you look better without make up… If I act friendly with another boy, he told me I did not have any kind of respect for him and had to be more formal….

It was impossible to express myself as I was and that he was not bothered by anything I did!!! What a horror!!!!! So our ‘relationship’ lasted almost nothing!!

This is a small example of one of my experiences. But when I received the tantric knowledge about the culture of relationships, it became so easy to understand why my love disasters!!! I didn’t know how to choose a mate who would be compatible with and with whom not!!!

If I had the basic knowledge that people can be of three types: mental (1), emotional (2) or physical (3) when choosing a partner would have saved me a lot of suffering!! This is something very important that all human beings should understand if we want good relationships, and not just couples, but to have harmonious relationships in communication with anyone.

Mikel was a guy of mental type and I was emotional, and it was very hard that we could understand each other in our relationship. Since the interests of those people are totally different!!!! If I had had this knowledge could have identified this at the beginning and I have saved so many arguments, so many disappointments, sorrows, sufferings!!!!!!

Has anyone taught us this in schools? Or our parents at home? I think not, for the simple reason that they do not have this knowledge, they did not have this culture of relations and teaches us only what they knew….

For me this knowledge was a wonderful discovery and when I received it I could understand lots of my love disasters!!! How, without realizing it, we ask people to be like us, we see the world from our point of view and think that all must see it in the same way that is a fixed entity!!! Thus come the suffering, misunderstandings between humans!! And how many couples that don’t find the understanding in their relationships, don’t understand each other!!!!

When I started learning about all this, big changes came into my life. Relationships with people began to be more harmonious. When I met someone I was watching the typology of the person – 1, 2 or 3, and in this way I could understand a little about his way of seeing life, his interests…. Like this I could comprehend them and not to ask them to see the life from my one and only point of view, but could understand and accept.

Big changes came, not only in my relationship with men, that began to be more successful, but throughout my workplace, family, my friends…. Everyone started to feel good with me, because I accept them, understand their points of views, and communication with them was smooth and fluid!!!!!

I had found a magic key that opened me new and wonderful opportunities when it comes to connecting with people, with all kind of people and in any area!!!

And after this knowledge transformed my life, open in me the desire to help people to improve their relations. I started receiving couples in my consultation office, and conduct psychological consultations with them, in order they start to know each other, understanding…. I advice special tantric practices depending on their needs and individuality…. And I could go slowly watching how the couples that came to consultation and followed the advices and guidance they received, were improving their relations, they managed their relation to reach higher levels, disappearing judgments and demands toward each other, but really began to love, to accept, to understood, to look each other like two souls who are here on Earth to developed and be happy, and helped each other to grow, evolve, to reach a state of joy and passion for life!!!

Many of the couples arrived feeling negative emotions, insecurities, jealousies… but going deepest in the understanding that the Tantra of Shambala transmits succeeded in transform their relationships, blurring the illusions in which they lived and brought only suffering….. Reemerge as God and Goddess, no longer as only man and woman, but as two divine beings reincarnated on this earth and are still together on the path towards perfection.

To see real and effective results in such a short period of time is what gives me strength and joy each day of my life!!! Now I do have good Teachers in my life that make me happy and help me to make other people happy!!! And I thank God everyday for having giving me this precious gift: True Knowledge!!!!!